I’ve been procrastinating on writing this blog until now. I’ve allowed a gamut of excuses to stop me. From: “No one’s listening anyway.” to “What if they don’t like me?” I’m sure you can relate.
I’d bet there’s something you’ve been meaning to do that you aren’t doing too. Why do we do this to ourselves? If I get an impulse that won’t go away, why am I so friggin’ stubborn about it? Spirit charged me with reaching out to you but, I’ve hesitated because I thought things had to be perfect in order for me to get started. At this point, I haven’t got much else to lose. I’m standing in a ring of fire. It seems like everything I’ve worked for is crumbling down around me and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Sleep eludes me lately. I haven’t got much else of a choice but to sit here now and write to you. Are you listening?
I wish you’d comment below to let me know you care. Not about me personally but about the fact that I’m writing and willing to be here. I know you’re going through similar circumstances in your life. Isn’t it maddening? Perhaps you’ve lashed out in spite or revenge and now you’re sitting there wearing your guilt. I’ve been there. I get you. And, I’m sorry you’re going through this.
Geez, when do we get a break? Doesn’t it feel sometimes that the world is just pummeling you and you can’t catch a break? What is this life for anyways? I sometimes wonder. Yes, me. Founder of “Spirit Awaits You”. A Personal Transformation Expert who’s endured many hardships in life and who has turned her own life around for the better; a Medium communicating with that with which you cannot touch, or smell or hear; I get down on myself and Life too sometimes. And that’s what this site is all about. It’s about the fact that we’re all human and Mediums cry too. Anyone who tells you that they never get upset either lives in a temple or is delusional. Or is just bullshitting you.
Life, this work, our practice is not about never having a hard time in life again. It’s about getting stronger, more flexible and developing the ability to decide when you will wallow and when you stand back up again. It’s been a long day. I’m proud of the work I’ve done but, tonight I’ll let myself feel down for a bit. Let myself lounge and cry some more. Can you feel me out there? Is anybody listening? At the end of the day, I really don’t care.
I hope you just screamed out “Bullshit!” Because that was total BS. Of course I care but, not enough to let whether you are there or not, liking what you’re reading or not, stop me any longer. I’m publishing this. May the chips fall where they may. I’m all in.
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~Christina Louise XO